OMG!!! I have become one of the most impatience person I know. I got checked on Friday and I was 2cm. I figured since with the other two once I started to dilate it wasn’t to long before I was in labor and heading to the hospital. Now it has been a week and no real signs of labor. Yes! I know being dilated does not mean much because some woman can be (insert number) cm dilated for weeks I get it, I was just hoping he would follow the other two.
Now the things is if he comes now he would be 23 days early. I just would like for him to come while my husband is in the area for a military commitment. I have been reading on how to induce labor and I’m convinced nothing really does the trick. I think we enjoy being “able” to have control. Now there are some suggestion I will not try which is the Caster Oil. I read that Raspberry Red Leaf Tea can help and I so had some in the drawer. I’m not a big hot tea drinker.
I KNOW this baby will come when the baby is ready.
I KNOW the baby staying the whole time is a good thing.
I KNOW that I may regret wanting the baby to come so soon.
I KNOW the timing will be just right.
I KNOW I can’t control this situation and I need to just take one day at a time.
A huge part of why I am going stir crazy is we cannot plan for the next step until this baby joins our family on the outside. We have a general idea of what we hope to happen but I cannot go out to the new location to find a home until the baby comes and I have a few weeks to recover. We have to be out of our current location at the end of September but I am hoping we will have a new place by the beginning on September if not towards the end of August.
I am also planning to go back to work at a daycare, hopefully as an assistant director. The location we are moving to requirements are what it used to be in our current location. I should be able to get a job with my associate degree. I have applied for positions but they want someone “right” now and that isn’t possible at this very moment. The sooner the baby comes the sooner the countdown for six weeks will start. I don’t know if this is what I should be doing, but it’s the plan I have in place at this moment. We could really use the extra income and P3 would love to “play” with friends.
I heard something today, and I had to think about it. “Impatience is just little spurts of anger.” J.M. I instantly thought this was clever but then I started to think about it. I believe this is true. I am finding myself being impatience with a lot of things. I also know I am being tested in many areas. Twice now I have had people cut me off in line. The first time the woman apologized when she realized what she did and let me go. Today the guy pretended he didn’t see me and I wanted to react but I let it go. I wish I could say it was because it was the nice thing to do but he only had two things in his cart. I get upset quickly. This morning my youngest woke up at 5 after a week of not waking until after 7. I thought about it and if I am honest, I was a little angry because I was awake and I did not want to be awake. I know it’s only been a week but I expect to sleep now (until this baby comes).
Despite me wanting to have this baby NOW I will continue to stop being impatience and continue to do life as normal. I began to pack today and I have a few things I could do before this baby comes. I do not know what to expect but I know that I need to find something to distract me because I’m going stir crazy. There is a lot of things down in the basement that can be packed and ready to go. I just need to get down there and do it. Plus, I need to find smaller free boxes to pack some smaller stuff. I have never had issues finding boxes when we moved from here the last time. Now people want you to buy their boxes instead of getting rid of them.